Great Expectations!

The Beginning of

My Great Expectations!

On my mom's lap. The chubby one. 

To start listen to this GREAT SONG! : )




I am almost done reading Great Expectations by Dickens. Incredible. I really really liked it. (note: I LOVE love LOVE reading. a lot). It was such a good book with so many altibajos (ups and downs) and so many unsuspected twists.

This past semester I took a Medieval Spanish Autobiography Class. Specific, right? Anyway, I think I really appreciate fictional autobiographies so much more now even though the class was pretty darn boring. I especially appreciated this book because I feel like I can SO RELATE TO IT.

I tend to have GREAT EXPECTATIONS and sometimes let myself be disillusioned quite like the sometimes quite pathetically love sick disillusion Pip in the book. This book has called me into reflection of how my life must look to God. I am pretty sure I  sometimes look like a flailing-ignorant -incapable- in-denial- protagonist of my own life. Just like Pip.

As a reader, it is SO OBVIOUS when Pip is has misconstrued a situation or pathetically strives for things that will never come to fruition... but it's not so obvious in my own life. I know that some of my greatest hopes and prayers of the past seem silly, ignorant, or potentially harmful to myself now. Some of my greatest efforts go toward making plans that only set me back in my story. Some of my greatest frustrations are a joke in the grand scheme of my story.

That being said, I am so HAPPY that I did not write my life story. This book has reaffirmed my new VERY STRONG desire to FLEE  from all inklings of my will (or plans) and to surrender to the Author, knowing that sometimes being discontent with MY STORY does not REWRITE A BETTER STORY. And MAKING PLANS that aren't in the SCRIPT is a WASTE OF TIME. Unless they are in accordance with the Author's Script.

During this break I have spent a lot of time in prayer, reflection, laziness, contemplation, and reading. I think what is becoming more and more clear to me is that I was not created to write a pathetic little for myself... I was created simply to live out and follow a very well written script. Furthermore, I am called to do so joyfully praising GOD (the Author) at all times (even in sorrow and despair) because ... well, I wouldn't be if it weren't for HIM and (EVEN) MOREOVER I wouldn't be promised such WONDER if it weren't for the Author.

TaNgEnT: Okay, so... could you imagine if the Author of a book Went into a book and Adopted His protagonist, became her knight in shining armor, died in battle to save her, confessed His undying love of her  and then promised her that at the end of her story she could keep living a more beautiful story in HIS WORLD.  Praise God! So, I guess I have it much better off than Pip because I don't think Dickens' did that for any of his characters.

I guess I just need to remind myself that I TRUST my Author to finish my STORY without a pathetic attempt to go against the SCRIPT. I know that even if my story is filled with many alitbajos and many tragedies, even if it doesn't end happy... I WAS PROMISED A FABULOUS EPILOGUE that trumps the small confines of a Book; I have been promised an Eternity of Happiness... so I guess I should just lay aside my "GREAT EXPECTATIONS" and keep my eyes on THAT GREAT END!!

Lord Save me From Myself!

In Rome with my Mom!

~ peace out ~