~ Evening Thoughts ~

My mom and I will always remind each other to "keep your eyes on the horizon"
Another way to say this is to simply move toward the light...
This made me think that If I was a child (which I often am) talking to God the Father
I would express the journey home to Him in this way:



Daddy, do you know what I expect?


Let me start with what I don't know...

I don't know what I expect from life
But I know what I expect from myself:
Honesty, Courage, Faith,  Growth...
I don't know where I will go
But I know that I will walk
And even if I stumble
I will move
toward the
light


I don't know what I expect from life
But I know what I expect from myself
patience, LOVE, hope...
I don't know where I will go
but I know where I have been
mistakes will happen
mistakes will shape me
humility will overtake me
and I will move
toward the
light

I don't know what I expect from life
But I know what I expect from myself
I expect to keep walking
I expect to TRUST, to SEEK, to MOVE
I expect to do something GOOD
I don't expect to be remembered
but I expect to remember
to simply move
toward the
light

Daddy I think that I am at a crossroads...
or maybe I'm not at a crossroads at all...?
There is so much darkness these days.
Have you notice how dark it is?
it's hard for me to tell
which way to light and which way to wrong
But I will walk until my feet don't move
and I will sing till I've dried up all the tunes
in the world
and with open eyes of a blind girl
I will fumble in the darkness
I will listen and speak and use all of my senses
AND I will MOVE toward the LIGHT


And Daddy
I am sorry but sometimes I am sure that I will be going backwards
And sometimes I am sure that I will have to stop moving for fear
And sometimes I am sure that in circles I will walk on the wrong path
and maybe even tell others to follow me into the pitch black
of mistakes
But Daddy, caution I will take
And my life a prayer will be
and though all I have to bring is
ME: empty as can be
I will move toward the light

Daddy, do you know what I expect?

I don't know what I expect from life
but I expect to die
to myself
and put fear
on the shelf with my old comforts in my dark room
and I expect that SOON
I will see the light

That is what I expect.
Goodnight!